Ever had the impression that there is a master plan? Something bigger than you, a web of ideas, situations and people that are linked together in a larger structure? I did. I actually had this sensation a lot during the last few years. And in the last few months, I started to feel it even more.
I often see things or get caught in situations that feel familiar to me. It’s like I’ve been experienced that before, or like I saw that thing some time ago. It’s not a deja-vu, though. A deja-vu will be something that will repeat identically to me. Those sensations are not repeating identically, there is a subtle change every time I see those things. I don’t know how to call it, things are almost identical, but there is some change involved.
I used to be scared when I started to have these impressions. First I was surprised, and then a little bit scared. Every repetition around you seems to be perceived like articulated language, and you start to look for significance. It’s ok to do this with people who are trying to talk with you, but when the Universe is starting to repeat sentences made from people and situations you feel a little fear.
That fear made the sensations disappear for a while. Or maybe the things were there, only I pretend they weren’t. Maybe that. Whatever the reasons, there was a big gap in how I perceived those recurring situations in my life.
I used to have a lot of insights during my teenage years, and then a big gap until 3-4 years ago. I used to see connexions and links in almost every little incident in my life when I was a teenager. Everything seemed to me like a big logical structure. Every detail had its role. And then, after I started to be more involved in the social game, like having a job, a standard set of relations and more, that vision disappeared. Everything was made of a discrete structure, with no more links than the present moment.
But as I said, those perceptions started to reappear 3-4 years ago. And with a lot more power. I started to observe coincidences and synchronicity. First I saw it in my life, and then I started to observe patterns in other’s life too. Apparently unrelated situations or persons lead to a certain type of outcome.
That was the time when I started to study astrology. For those of you still into tabloid-like zodiacs, I recommend first reading this post about understanding astrology. The main reason for studying astrology was finding an answer to these coincidences. And, to some extent, astrology proved useful. I learned how, using a symbolic model of the reality, to understand some patterns in my life. It was a very enlightening experience.
But as I said, only to some extent. Because, despite it’s power and deepness, astrology can’t explain everything. In fact, astrology won’t explain anything, it will just point you to a larger and more detailed context. That’s all astrology does, it will not live your life for your and it will not answer all of your questions. You’ll still have to find your own way in that larger context.
So, the coincidences are still there. I still see recurring patterns and persons all the time, and with more clarity than ever. And the other day I just had this thought into my mind: what if there is a Master Plan? Something bigger and more complex than you could imagine? What this Master Plan would be like? How would you perceive it? How you will understand it? How can you become part of it?
I’m still wondering while I’m writing right now, but there are some parts that are starting to slowly unveil. Like pieces from a puzzle. Very small pieces of a puzzle, to be correct.
Each and every familiar person you encounter over and over is a riddle. If you happen to meet over and over the same person, there is something that you need to understand from that person. It’s a carrier, a messager. His message though is encrypted.
You don’t have to find the same person to understand that message, you can just find very similar persons. Not physically identical, but very very similar. I had this type of experience when I first visited New Zealand, and I wrote about it in this post. I met a number of persons during my trip and all of them seemed extremely familiar to me, although I never saw them before in my life (except one).
The riddle those persons carried was about my level of understanding. I needed them in order to show me how I enter a new universe, and how can I shape this universe based on my prior experience. It was a very enlightening experience. I still assimilate on that one.
That was only a dimension of the relation with those people. I still had a normal and relaxed interaction with each and every one of them, but on top of that was this feeling of something familiar. This is where the Master Plan inserts into your life, it is no obtrusive. You live your life as you should, but you get some hints from time to time.
Each familiar situation you face is a situation you haven’t yet solved. This is why it repeats over and over again. Most of the time those repeating situations deals with unpleasant things, but there are times when you find a situation repeating into your life just for the fun of it. Falling in love from time to time for instance, is a familiar situation. And it doesn’t have anything unpleasant in it. You just have to understand more and more from love.
I found that if you resist to solve a situation, it will reappear into your life in a different, and usual more powerful form. Contrary to the astrological belief that an unsolved situation will be carried as bad karma, I found situations that were unsolved, presented to be solved in another form, but wrapped up in a sweeter form than before. Like hiding a bitter pill into a candy.
Of course, some recurring situations are just popping out violently and aggressively. That doesn’t make them less solvable, on the contrary.
Solving a recurring situation is something extremely powerful. Don’t think fireworks, there won’t be any mass media announces when you solve some of the recurring situations of your life. It will be silent and intimate. But it will dramatically change your inner structure.
Surprisingly or not, the bigger structure of the Master Plan would be changed too after you solve a recurring situation. You might be presented again with that situation, but from my experience this is happening mostly from the observer chair. It’s like the Master Plan is projecting a movie, pointing you to situations in other people lives, just for entertaining. Or to remind you from time to time that you’ve been there too, and now you can help others overcome this situation.
Decisions are a mix of people and situations and are more like the keys to unlock the doors. I’ve often found myself in front of the same decision I had to make years ago. Only the physical surroundings were different. In fact, I had to repeat many bad decisions until I finally found some way to transcend them.
For example, I’ve made a lot of bad decisions when I chose my employees, back when I had an online publishing business. I always hunted for people less experienced than me and with less knowledge. Of course, this was out of fear of getting out of employees. If I was more experienced than them I could somehow control them and keep them for going to another company. Totally dumb, of course. When I realized that I had this decision going on and on for years I started to change it. Gradually: I first started some internal courses in the company, to raise the expertise level, and then I started to hunt for real high skilled people. But it was time to quit that job anyway.
But that decision to find really skilled people to work with paid back even after I sold the business. Right now, on my coaching activities I look for extremely gifted and skilled people to coach. I don’t want to do business with non skilled people, and I don’t want to do business out of fear. Coaching is the very best expression of this decision: I go for the other guy success, not for mine. Or, in other words, I’m successful only when the other guy breaks through.
It seems that the Master Plan is popping out those decisions exactly in the same form during the years. It must deals with some very deep mechanisms within me that needs change. I started to pay a lot more attention to the way I’m taking decisions. I learned that despite the actual number of those decisions in my life, from going to shopping up to starting a new habit, the quality of those decisions is somehow unchanged.
If I take a decision out of fear or with some degree of uncertainty in my head, the decision will surely reappear in my life sooner or better. It’s not about results, because based on my experience I can predict better results even if I take a decision based on fear. It’s about the inner vibration of that decision. Until it’s done with joy and ease, it will pop up again and again. That’s how my Master Plan is working.
How is your Master Plan working? Do you feel like having a Master Plan? Is everything fresh in your life without any recurring pattern? Have you seen your own mistakes in other people lives? I would love to hear your feed-back.
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The spooky thing about depression is that it sneaks in. There aren’t really trumpets and loud voices announcing: “Hail, hail, this is depression entering the room, all rise!” Nope. It’s slow, silent, creepy. It doesn’t even look like depression. It starts with small isolation thoughts like: “Maybe I shouldn’t get out today, I just don’t feel like going out”. And then it does the same next day. And then the day after that and so on. And then it starts to whisper louder and louder in your ears: “Why would you go outside, you loser? Didn’t have enough yet? Want more people to make fun of how much of a big, fat loser you are?”
And then you start to breath in guilt and shame, instead of air. Every breathe you take is putting more dark thoughts into your body.
Until you get stuck. You can’t move anymore. At all.
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