The worst thing that can happen to you is to realize that you have unlimited power. That you can do anything. That you can create everything you want. That there is nothing outside you and everything is inside, waiting to blossom. The worst thing is to realize that you’re here to create your own life. Why?
Because you’ll face some terrible questions.
First question: what should I do with my life?
It’s so much easier to live without a purpose, thinking that you have limited powers, that your destiny was engraved in stone and you can’t do anything to change it. Asking questions like “what should I do with my life, now that I DO have the power to change it?” it’s a difficult process. Not everyone is ready to ask that question, and even less are ready to give an honest answer. It’s so much easier to put your entire life on somebody else’s plate.
Put it on your parents, they didn’t love you when you were a kid. Put it on the system, it’s making you a 9 to 5 slave. Put it on your spouse, for being lazy or angry or unconsidered. Put on your kids are they are here to steal your precious time, a time that you would otherwise spend on meaningless tv shows or useless gossip.
It’s easier to put the guilt on somebody else, it will free your consciousness and ease your pain. Why live a life with a purpose when there are so many difficulties? Why do something if somebody (your parents, spouse, kids, boss, this out-of-nowhere man) will prevent you for doing it? Why searching for a higher purpose when you can think you’re just a limited individual with limited power and limited beliefs?
Living a life without purpose, without accessing your enormous power is always a safer bet. Admit it: this concept of unlimited power doesn’t fit with your current lifestyle. So, it must not exist at all.
Playing Hide And Seek
Second question: who am I?
The most popular game in the world is “hide and seek”. We hide from ourselves and then spend the rest of our life trying to find us again. It’s the most popular game because we became extremely skillful masters of our own delusion. We derail in the most complicated stories with the most intricate plots we can imagine, only to escape from ourselves.
And we do that because we unconsciously don’t know what to do with that inner power. We are puzzled, confused, we simply cannot accept that we can create everything, so we finally started to run away from it. We started to hide behind our own delusions.
This is how we invented divinity. By the way, that’s one of the most complicated stories we invented so far. We separated a special space in our life, called “sacred” and put there a highly resourceful concept, called “divinity”. This and only this “divinity” can create stuff. This divinity created us, and this is the source of everything “that is”.
We found a way to solve our puzzle, we created something bigger than us. And we allegedly use this divinity in order to regain our lives, to redeem, to reunite. We pray, we perform rituals, and we seek redemption. That’s one nicely done hide and seek session, don’t you think?
But the truth is divinity lies within us, not outside. What we call divinity it’s just one attribute of that unlimited power we already have within. We created our world, our reality, our life. This is our true nature. Unfortunately, we can’t always accept our true nature. So we play this hide and seek game in which we eliminate the genuine power from within and transform it into outside concepts, systems and rituals.
The Fear Factor
Third question: what if I do something wrong?
Fear is the anticipation of a possible bad outcome from your current situation. You only live here and now, but fear projects a possible bad end to your current status. And what’s happening when you shift your focus from here and now to a potential bad end? Yes, correct: you create that bad end.
By succumbing to fear we are making one of the supidest moves we can make: we’re using our power in order to destroy ourselves. Fear is never in the present time, it’s a potential that we bring to life. We use our power to create this potential. We create the bad end by keeping our focus on a fearful state.
I found that fear is really one of the most important obstacles in reaching our inner purity and power. It took me a while to understand the mechanics of it, but when I finally found it, I completely understood that fear is just another creativity session we perform. Hope and fear share the same structure: they are just potentials which are transformed into reality by our focus, our inner power.
The only difference is that fear projects a potential of destruction. Follow your fears and your unlimited power will be used against you.
The Game Of Responsibility
Fourth question: do I have to accept anything?
This power that you have, this unlimited capacity of creation let you do anything. But after doing something, you must cope with it. You must accept it, acknowledge you made it and integrate it into your life. This process is called responsibility. And when you don’t accept what you created, when you don’t integrate it into your life, you actually reject your true nature.
That’s another reason for not embracing totally your power: the lack of responsibility. Why use your power if you know you can create something you won’t accept? Why totally embrace your creative energy, if you won’t accept the outcome? Yes, you can make failures, and failures are part of the learning process. Just because you missed some spots in your life you don’t have to completely ditch everything.
Accepting our failures and mistakes is one of the hardest chapters of our life. We strive so much on this path that we forgot the real goal: to live. To enjoy. To create.
Yes, we are able to create everything, including our mistakes. And yes, we have the power to make them part of our life and move on, lesson learned.
If you don’t accept the fact that you have unlimited power, that power will not vanish away. It will still be there, but it just won’t be used by you. The bad news is that somebody else is going to use it. If you don’t use something you already have, you are inviting somebody else to take it. You received this gift with a purpose, your received it so you can enjoy it. And if you don’t enjoy it, somebody else will take it away from you.
I’m sure this is very difficult to digest. I know, because it was difficult to digest for me too. Sometimes it still is. But that doesn’t make it less real. Only because we have a hard time to believe it, that doesn’t mean it isn’t true.
It’s hard to admit that you gave away your power and put yourself into a victimizing position. It’s hard to admit that you don’t have anything you want in your life because you simply deny it. When unhappy, it’s difficult to acknowledge self-inflicted misery.
But that’s happening because you don’t use your power and somebody else is taking it from you. Because you think you are a limited person. Because your whole beliefs system permits that to happen. If you don’t assess and use your infinite power, you’re actually inviting abusers and power addicted persons to steal this unused power from you. You’re not a victim because they are abusers, you are victim because you empowered them.
It would be so easy to shift this situation to a fulfilling one, to a sea of potentials that you will bring into matter by only using your unlimited inner power.
Don’t waste it.
Running For My Life - from zero to ultramarathoner
The spooky thing about depression is that it sneaks in. There aren’t really trumpets and loud voices announcing: “Hail, hail, this is depression entering the room, all rise!” Nope. It’s slow, silent, creepy. It doesn’t even look like depression. It starts with small isolation thoughts like: “Maybe I shouldn’t get out today, I just don’t feel like going out”. And then it does the same next day. And then the day after that and so on. And then it starts to whisper louder and louder in your ears: “Why would you go outside, you loser? Didn’t have enough yet? Want more people to make fun of how much of a big, fat loser you are?”
And then you start to breath in guilt and shame, instead of air. Every breathe you take is putting more dark thoughts into your body.
Until you get stuck. You can’t move anymore. At all.
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